Showing posts with label mental illness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label mental illness. Show all posts

Tuesday, June 24, 2025

A Work in Progress by Jarrett Lerner

 

A Work in Progress   by Jarrett Lerner  361 pages

Will is the only round kid in a school full of string beans. So he hides in baggy jeans and oversized hoodies, in the back row during class, and anywhere but the cafeteria during lunch. But shame isn't the only feeling that dominates Will's life. He's also got a crush on a girl named Jules who knows he doesn't have a chance with -- string beans only date string beans -- but he can't help wondering what if? Will's best shot at attracting Jules's attention is by slaying the Will Monster inside him by changing his eating habits and getting more exercise. But the results are either frustratingly slow or infuriatingly unsuccessful, and Will's shame begins to morph into self-loathing. As he resorts to increasingly drastic measures to transform his appearance, Will meets skateboarder Markus, who helps him see his body and all it contains as an ever-evolving work in progress. 


Very fast read.  Addresses a topic that I know is important to teens, but very hard to read.  It shows how an overweight teen feels on the inside and how words DO hurt! 

Wednesday, November 20, 2024

My Year of Rest and Relaxation by Ottessa Moshfegh

 My Year of Rest and Relaxation by Ottessa Moshfegh


The anonymous narrator, a slender and beautiful blonde from a wealthy WASP family, is a recent Columbia University art history graduate grappling with her personal tragedies and the pressures of societal expectations. During her senior year in college, both of her parents died—first her father from cancer, then her mother in a suicide caused by an interaction between psychiatric medications and alcohol. Now residing on Manhattan's Upper East Side and increasingly dissatisfied with her post-collegiate life, the narrator seeks out Dr. Tuttle, a psychiatrist known for her unorthodox methods. Dr. Tuttle readily prescribes a range of sleeping pills, anti-anxiety, and anti-psychotic medications. The narrator, however, intends to spend as few hours awake as possible, numbing herself with a steady regimen of pills and repeatedly watching middlebrow movies on her VCR until the machine finally breaks down.

After being dismissed from her art gallery job, the narrator decides to subsist on her inheritance and unemployment benefits, embarking on a year-long quest to 'reset' her life through extensive sleep. But her "year of rest and relaxation" is regularly interrupted. Her college roommate Reva (who unabashedly envies the narrator's wealth and appearance) makes frequent unannounced visits, which the narrator allows despite her disdain for Reva's social climbing and annoyance at having to listen to Reva's problems—her own mother's terminal cancer, a frustrating affair with her married boss. The narrator is also occasionally in contact with an older boyfriend, Trevor (a banker who works in the World Trade Center), though he frequently cuts off their relationship to date women his own age, returning when one of them has dumped him or occasionally in response to the narrator's pleading.

The narrator initially makes trips out of her apartment only to a local bodega, Dr. Tuttle's office, and the Rite Aid to fill her prescriptions. But as she takes stronger and stronger medications, she begins leaving the apartment in her sleep, among other things to go to nightclubs (or so she gathers from Polaroid photographs and glitter she discovers when she awakes from her multi-day blackout). She also wakes up on a train headed toward the funeral of Reva's mother on New Year's Eve 2000. Convinced these activities—which have no appeal to the narrator in her conscious hours—are disrupting her efforts at complete rest, she decides she needs to sleep locked inside her apartment. She contacts Ping Xi, an artist represented by the gallery where she used to work, who agrees to bring her food and other necessities for four months in exchange for being allowed to make any kind of art project he wishes while she is unconscious: the only requirement is that all trace of him be gone when she wakes every three days to eat, bathe, and take another pill to put herself under again. To prepare, she empties her apartment, giving her designer clothes to the ever-covetous Reva, who has just been dumped by her boss—unaware that she is pregnant, he arranged a promotion that would transfer her out of his office and to the company's office in the World Trade Center. Reva plans to have an abortion; the narrator sleeps until June 1.

She readjusts to life slowly, spending hours over the summer of 2001 sitting in a park and refurnishing her once-expensively decorated apartment with mismatched, used furniture from Goodwill. But as she hoped, her worldview has been transformed by her rest: her contempt for Reva has evaporated and for the first time she earnestly reciprocates her friend's previously insistent declarations that "I love you", though now Reva is the one who has become distant. The narrator calls Reva once more, on her birthday in August, but Reva brushes off the call. They never speak again. On September 11, Trevor is in Barbados on his honeymoon and Reva dies in the terror attack on the World Trade Center. The narrator goes out to buy a new VCR to tape the news coverage, returning as time passes to watch the video, in particular footage of a woman leaping out of the North Tower whom she believes to be Reva.

Friday, December 18, 2020

One By One by Ruth Ware


One By One by Ruth Ware-372 pages


Depending on how much you like your co-workers, you might enjoy a company retreat in a rustic mountain chalet.  But when bodies start piling up, you begin to wonder who has become unhinged.  Not such a great idea after all!  It keeps you guessing and the end to the riddle is satisfying.  I enjoyed it very much.

 

Piece of My Heart by Mary Higgins Clark


Piece of My Heart by Mary Higgins Clark-319 pages

In the 7th installment in the Under Suspicion series, Laurie and her fiancee Alex find themselves searching for Alex's nephew after being abducted from the beach.  The wedding is put on hold as the search takes on a sinister twist.  Will he be found alive?  An excellent installment in the series.  I enjoyed it very much.  Mary Higgins Clark has left the series in very capable hands.  I do hope that Alafair Burke carries on.  We will miss you, Mary Higgins Clark.




Wednesday, January 29, 2020

Carrie Fisher: Life on the Edge by Shelia Weller

Carrie Fisher: Life on the Edge by Shelia Weller, 367 pages

This was one of the best biographies I have read in a long time.  Shelia details every aspect of Carrie's life, year by year, month by month.  What she writes about Carrie is so shocking and very revealing.  Shelia also details Carries brushes with death and her severe mental problems and drug addiction.  This was a great book especially if you are a fan of Carrie Fisher.

Monday, April 23, 2018

Educated, A Memoir by Tara Westover

Educated, A Memoir by Tara Westover - 334 pages

Tara Westover was seventeen when she first set foot in a classroom. Instead of traditional lessons, she grew up learning how to stew herbs into medicine, scavenging in the family scrap yard and helping her family prepare for the apocalypse. She had no birth certificate and no medical records and had never been enrolled in school.

Westover’s mother proved a marvel at concocting folk remedies for many ailments. As Tara developed her own coping mechanisms, little by little, she started to realize that what her family was offering didn’t have to be her only education. She taught herself enough mathematics, grammar, and science to take the ACT and was admitted to Brigham Young University at 16. 
Her first day of university was her first day in school—ever—and she would eventually win an esteemed fellowship from Cambridge and graduate with a PhD in intellectual history and political thought.


Saturday, April 14, 2018

The Bride Collector by Ted Dekker

The Bride Collector by Ted Dekker-466 pages

Ted Dekker is my favorite author and I hadn't yet read this one, so I decided to read it next. I did like this one, although I am not quite sure where I would place it in accordance with his other books that I've read. I like that Dekker explores mental illness and current events within his novels. I also like the good vs. evil aspect of his novels. Overall, this was a good read.

Saturday, March 31, 2018

Define Crazy by Donna Snyder, RN, BSN

Define Crazy by Donna Snyder, RN, BSN, 138 pages

Define Crazy was a very interesting book by a local author and mental health professional about the field of psychiatry and mental health patients.  Donna writes about real stories that actually happened to her and her patients.  Of course, she changes the names for privacy reasons.  She has experienced a lot in her 20 years on a locked psych ward especially when she worked at the state hospital.  I found this book very relevant especially in today's society.

Wednesday, March 7, 2018

Turtles All The Way Down by John Green









Turtles All The Way Down
by  John Green
286 pages

Read by: Kate Rudd








Sixteen-year-old Aza never intended to pursue the mystery of fugitive billionaire Russell Pickett, but there’s a hundred-thousand-dollar reward at stake and her best and most fearless friend, Daisy, is eager to investigate. So together, they navigate the short distance and broad divides that separate them from Russell Pickett’s son, Davis.
 
Aza is trying. She is trying to be a good daughter, a good friend, a good student, and maybe even a good detective, while also living within the ever-tightening spiral of her own thoughts.

I listened to the audio version of this book and enjoyed it very much.

Wednesday, January 11, 2017

Hillbilly Elegy by J.D. Vance

Hillbilly Elegy : A Memoir of a Family and Culture in Crisis by J.D. Vance, 272 pages

This biography tells how a Kentucky hillbilly, raised in Ohio (yet still a Kentucky hillbilly) went against the odds of both his upbringing and his environment to become a military veteran and a Yale Law graduate. Raised by many a father, a physically and mentally absent addict mother, and an always steady grandmother and sister, J.D. could have taken the track many have in his position. But seeing the hard-working example of his hillbilly grandfather, he knew he had to work to get out of his situation that wasn't of his making. His trials along the way helped him form his opinions on rural living and politics. A fascinating read. 

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

Saving Red by Sonya Sones

Saving Red by Sonya Sones, 440 pages

Molly is a fifteen year old trying to cope with the recent "loss" of her brother (who is suffering from PTSD) and some heavy drama in her life involving the guilt she feels.  While dealing with her own pain, Molly befriends a local mentally ill runaway affectionately nicknamed "Red".  Along with her therapy dog, Pixel, and a boy, Cristo, she meets out on her adventures, Molly tries to help Red and to get her to contact home before the Christmas holidays. Written entirely in verse, Sonya Sones writes an extremely heartfelt story that surprisingly has a happy ending.

Thursday, June 30, 2016

A Mother's Reckoning: Living In The Aftermath Of Tragedy by Sue Klebold

A Mother's Reckoning: Living In The Aftermath Of Tragedy by Sue Klebold, 305 pages

One of the most tragic school shootings happened at Columbine High School on April 20, 1999.  Sue Klebold is the mother of one of the shooters.  On that day in April, Dylan Klebold and Eric Harris walked into their school armed with bombs and guns intending to do the most harm they could do to their fellow classmates.  It was a tragedy.

A Mother's Reckoning is an account of what Sue Klebold has gone through in the past 16 years of her life.  Her account starts on that fateful day when she receives a phone call from her husband urging her to come home.  Fearing her son was one of the victims, she was in denial when she found her son was possibly one of the shooters.  Her account of what follows is chilling.  She tries to convince herself that her son in no way could be responsible for his actions and that rather he was a victim of brainwashing or drugs. We all thought of what was going through Dylan's and Eric's minds, but what about the parents who have to live with the aftermath of what their child has done.  Sue and her husband faced over 30 lawsuits in the years to follow.  Sue also had to return to her life and the person she once was.  Not only was it a fact that her child had killed others, but that her child had committed suicide.  This book will make you think and run to hug your children.

Saturday, June 25, 2016

The Missing Kennedy by Elizabeth Koehler-Pentacoff

The Missing Kennedy by Elizabeth Koehler-Pentacoff, 260 pages

The Missing Kennedy is a fascinating book about the eldest daughter of Rose and Joseph Kennedy.  From a young age, Rosemary Kennedy displayed signs of emotional and behavioral problems.  At the age of 23, Joseph Kennedy had a lobotomy performed on Rosemary, unbeknownst to Rosemary.  Joseph then had Rosemary sent to a Catholic-run home for the mentally disabled in rural Wisconsin.  This book is written by the niece of the Sister, Sister Paulus,  who cared for Rosemary during most of her adult life.  What is fascinating about this book is that it outlines Rosemary's relationship with her siblings, especially JFK, and her relationship with the Kennedy family after the death of Joseph Kennedy.  It also describes how Eunice Shriver started the Special Olympics.


Thursday, April 14, 2016

Let's Pretend This Never Happened - Jenny Lawson

Let's Pretend this Never Happened - Jenny Lawson - 384 pages

Even if your father isn't making you puppets out of half-squirrels in the middle of the night and dropping uncounted ducklings on your children in the living room at more reasonable hours, the stories Lawson shares are so relatable you'll almost agree that it's totally normal to wear koala footie pajamas to meet koalas in Australia.

Funny, tragic, and utterly magical, this romp through the everyday adventures of The Bloggess will make you feel awesome about all the beautiful little quirks that make up your crazy life.

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

Furiously Happy - Jenny Lawson

Furiously Happy: A Funny Book about Horrible Things - Jenny Lawson - 352 pages

Few authors could so artfully jam taxidermied raccoon rodeos and radically depressing depression together in one book, but this gal totally did it.  I laughed, I cried, I did both at the same time.

Part memoir, part logbook of arguments with her husband and with herself, the main theme here is that there's an upside to mental illness.  She's living it up, furiously happy and determined not just to survive the ups and downs of anxiety and depression, but to reap all the polarized rewards of each to the best of her ability.  Whether you have a mental illness or know someone who does, this book is just flat out hilarious and thought-provoking for all the right reasons.

Wednesday, March 9, 2016

Beacon 23 - Hugh Howey

Beacon 23 - Hugh Howey - 256 pages

A PTSD-riddled space war vet saves the day by doing nothing.  His reward?  Just what he wants: a post in the far reaches of space, manning a beacon far away from the front lines and everyone else.

But, in the inky blackness of self-imposed exile, only you can hear your mental and emotional health slowly deteriorate under the weight of the aftermath of your own front lines failure and survivor's remorse.  Stoned by the gravity well half the time and manic over repairs, pet rocks, and a brewing rebellion the next, our anti-hero is eventually faced with a brutal choice between the lives of his compatriots and the lives of...well, everyone else.

What I loved about this book was the unflinching depiction of a man struggling with mental illness.  What I didn't love about this book was it didn't get to the point until very late in the story...so late that I didn't really believe it.

Sunday, February 28, 2016

Challenger Deep - Neal Shusterman

Challenger Deep - Neal Shusterman - 320 pages

This was...something.  Something disturbing, something hilarious at times, something that inspired sympathetic longing, and something that frankly hurt to read.  This is Caden's seafaring voyage through the treatment of his mental illness, and Shusterman is brilliant at weaving the real and the almost real and the hopefully not real here.  Challenger Deep is the deepest trench in the ocean, and in Caden's delusions, he is the first mate on a pirate ship heading straight for it to collect sunken treasure.  The captain of the ship is changeable and dangerous, his talking parrot cryptic, and each plots against the other with Caden's help.  Caden's fellow hospital dwellers come along through parts of his voyage as different members of the ship's crew, but in the end, it's just Caden and the sea and whatever's at the bottom of it.

What made this such a painful read was the artful way Shusterman wove the real and almost real together, based on his own son's experience with schizoaffective disorder.  Drawings from his son's time in the hospital moonlight on pages throughout the book, illustrating Caden's descent, and the tangible evidence of those drawings promotes a visceral realness to this not-quite-fictional account.  Caden's resignation (and the author's implied resignation) about the difficulty of living with ongoing mental illness make it a bittersweet journey; you're going to want a happy ending, but even if Caden finds his equilibrium back on the high seas, you know he's going back again eventually.  It'd be easy to close the book with a riding off into the sunset victorious moment to satisfy our want for definitive, permanent wins, but what you'll get here is much more honest.

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Planetfall - Emma Newman

Planetfall - Emma Newman - 336 pages

This book has everything: a messiah complex, a murder mystery, space hoarding, a womb city, and so many 3D printers it will blow your mind.  What really inspired me to plow through this one was the humility and realism of the main character's visceral struggle with mental illness superimposed over the origin story of a colonial society born of what could be termed a different species of the same animal.  Renata, our touchstone and narrator through the book, is buried twenty-two years into life on a colony built on the foundation of the holy vision of her best friend, now believed by the colonists to be communing with God in an alien city.  There are so many secrets swirling inside Ren about how they arrived and survived that it's slowly tearing her apart.

Something about this book feels genuine and naked and sharp when it comes to how Ren lives with the weight of her history at the foot of the God city.  She's brilliant, driven, empathetic, but broken, and her humanity hangs out everywhere as she and the mystery of the colony and a new visitor, the grandson of Ren's prophetic BFF, unravel.  I can't say the end of this book came a total surprise; maybe it was the path of least creative resistance to wind up where it wound up, but by the time I got there I didn't care.  The rest of the ride was such a glorious gut punch that the journey more than made up for it.

Friday, October 23, 2015

Fast Girl by Suzy Favor Hamilton

Fast Girl by Suzy Favor Hamilton, 294 pages

Fast Girl is a fascinating biography written by former Olympian Suzy Favor Hamilton.  Suzy was a three time Olympian who was known for middle distance running.  The book details her journey to the Olympics and her fight to stay at the top of her sport.  Her story is fascinating as her high from running is replaced with a new high of dangerous sex exploits. How does a former Olympian and girl next door, married to her college sweetheart, become one of the highest paid escorts in Las Vegas?  Her brother's death from suicide that greatly affected Suzy leads to a diagnosis of bipolar disorder and the correct treatment.  Fast Girl is a very revealing story of a person's struggle to rebuild her life after a diagnosis of bipolar disorder.

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Top Down: A Novel of the Kennedy Assassination by Jim Lehrer



Top Down: A Novel of the Kennedy Assassination by Jim Lehrer (Author)

What happens to a family when one if its members witnesses something unthinkable? Witnessing the horror of assassination, Secret Service Agent Van Walters insists he is the reason the protective bubble cover was removed – causing Kennedy’s death.  His guilt leads to mental and physical decline,alienation from daughter, Marti and  his wife’s alcoholism. Shocked at her father’s condition after not seeing him for several years, college age Mari asks the journalist who spoke with her father in 1963 to help prove Van is not to blame. Lehrer, an eyewitness to the assassination, as written a quick read. An audio version available.